this is my darling baby blanca. I’ve had her since I was 10-11 and I begged my mom for her for AGES.
Yesterday afternoon, I brought her into the vet for excessive drooling, a lack of exercise and constant ear shaking. The vet told me she had an early dental abscess, it would need to be drained under anesthesia and she would need reoccurring vet visits for the rest of her life to continue fixing her teeth.
I don’t have the money for thousands of dollars for her. Heck, I barely had enough for the vet appointment itself. Because of her age (7) and the risk of rabbits under anesthesia, I decided to let her go.
I feel horrible. I didn’t want her to suffer with the pain of the teeth I couldn’t pay for but that entire vet visit she was the sweetest little thing. Purring, nudging my hand, soaking up the attention. I set her down on the table and she jumped right back onto me. She had never done that before.
It’s only been a day but I miss her so much and I can’t stop crying. I feel like I failed her. I’m having trouble looking at my two other buns.
it hurts so much walking into a vet clinic with your pet and coming out in tears with a cardboard box.
i just don’t know what to do with the grief.
by CharacterTap193