I lost my girl Pippin in the wee hours of Wednesday morning. Tuesday night I saw something concerning on the pet cam and rushed home and to the ER vet. Somehow, in a fluke thing, she turned wrong and fractured her spine.
I'm so devastated I don't even have the words. She was my soul bunny. The suddenness of it has just slayed me. She was incredibly friendly and affectionate and had a lot of health issues but trusted me so much.
Now it's me and her mate Merry. I adore this boy. But he's not terribly friendly or affectionate to me. Pip was his world. Two nights later and yeah, he's eating. But he's also upset. He's being even more destructive than usual – especially around 2am last night.
I'm doing my best to stay upbeat and keep routine for him. He isn't approaching the stuffies yet.
And now I'm just worrying over him. Is he okay. Will he be okay. I already had medical anxiety around Pip because of her frequent GI stasis. Now I'm worrying if he's eating enough. Has he used the litter box recently.
I will be getting him a new friend. But I can't just yet, I need at least a week or two first to get a set up ready for a new friend, plus we'll have to go "dating" for a match. I'd rather wait even longer because it's almost dump season… And Pip was a dump bunny.
I miss her so much. She loved to lick me and to be petted as much as I could most of the time. Merry and I, we've made incredible progress in 3 years. He trusts me a lot now and is occasionally affectionate but it's definitely all on his terms. I hope I can be enough and keep him healthy until we find a new friend.
I'm so heart broken. I don't even know how to be right now. I had to take Wednesday off because I didn't get home until nearly 4am. I'm grateful to my boss. But I'm so devastated inside.
Hold your babies in your hearts. I could never have guessed this would happen. She didn't get stuck. She didn't fall or jump off something. She was playing and it happened. I miss her so freaking much.
by gelseyd