guilty

this is mainly me venting not asking for advice 🧍🏾my tiny bun is 6 years old now and she’s spent her entire life so far without a bunny friend and i can tell the social isolation is getting to her. i always felt extremely bad about it even before i could see the visible changes and i always had the intention of getting another bun despite many setbacks and unforeseen circumstances. dont get me wrong she can still be her energetic/playful self & i spend lots of time with her but i can tell i am not enough as she needs someone she can relate to. when she turned 3 i got her a friend and she was extremely excited! that’s when i knew how much she wanted this but it didn’t work out at ALL. i had to give him to my sister as i found that he prefers to be an ‘only son’ 😭 i’ve been on the hunt since but i never see many bunnies for adoption that are friendly to my area especially bunnies in places that offer bonding and i really want that to be something that is definitely done beforehand this time around. i have a strong intention to do this as soon as possible but i am also not financially ready to travel or get another rabbit currently as i have been facing some personal problems with money and health issues for the last 2 years. i feel so stupid and guilty for not getting her a friend that was bonded with her when i adopted her or just getting her a friend a long time ago. i was naive to the extremity of how much they prefer another rabbits company as i was silly enough to think i would be enough for her 🙃 ik theres not much to do right now but i feel like such a terrible & irresponsible owner that doesn’t deserve her 💔