Had to put my best friend of 7 1/2 years down a few days ago. She was the best thing to ever happen to me and helped me through so much.
My question is how do I come to accept this? This whole situation doesn’t feel real and the heartbreak I’m experiencing is like nothing else I’ve ever had to deal with. I’ve haven’t left my bed in days, have felt too sick with sadness to eat and my eyes are literally almost swollen shut from all the crying. I can’t go in the living room because that’s where she used to live and it just hurts too much to see it empty.
She was such a large part of my life and my main emotional support (I am severely mentally ill) and I just feel like I can’t cope with her loss without her. She was by my side through everything. I literally don’t know how to go on. I can’t stop thinking about her and her final moments and it just makes me break down so hard every time.
I haven’t really been able to even think about getting a new bunny. I don’t want a pet ever again because they will never be like her.
I haven’t been to work since we came to the decision to put her down about 4 days ago. I haven’t been able to do or concentrate on anything and just feeling like my mind and soul are in tatters.
I know it’s still early and grief takes time to pass but I don’t know how am I supposed to carry on with life when I just have so much pain inside me. I miss her so much.
by goblingrace