Yesterday night around 6:20 pm my sweet sweet girl Truffle passed. I had stepped out to run an errand, felt great having seen her do so much better and was excited for the vet visit only 16 hours away to see how else to help her improve..
While I was out she crawled up to her husbun, and the camera only catches image movement so it caught her going over, then him grooming her, and then her no longer moving but instead, gone..
I called my dad to check as the live image seemed odd, he told me to come home while crying “bunny wake up”.. I was close by and within a couple minutes everything felt like it went dark, I held her for I don’t know how long, sobbed.
I asked the vet for her records and saw there were things going on they never communicated to me, things they weren’t treating for, and no notes of the concerns I had bee making such as her neon amber pee, or mucus coated poops even the days I took her in for these things they seem to have fully been dismissed.
I do not wish to blame the vet for misdiagnosis, I wish I could have done more to save her, I took her to the vet constantly, every week, on emergencies where I felt anxious, a day she suddenly was not using her back left leg.. and they kept giving me medications but looking back never told me why, never told me her muscles were atrophying, never told me anything that was going on, just advised a molar trim, days later she was in my arms and leaving me behind.
Her husbun is sad, he probably loved her in ways I could never understand unique to bunnies. She was only 6.. I had promised her 12 or more years when I got her and I just feel this hole, I just feel guilt, I don’t know how much more I could have done but wish I could go back and do anything, begged for an overnight watch at the vet or anything. Her husbun also had his med notes sent and while to my face I was told his teeth were perfect, the notes say he has teeth marked for anomalies of sharp spurs, I’ve been lied to, my pleas were ignored. I woke up every day at 4am to give her meds, went to work, came home and did the same, fed her critical care when she was no longer able to seemingly swallow food aside from chewing and dropping it..My baby girl is gone. And I will hold this as that maybe I let her down.. I miss her.
She had her birthday Oct 21, just turned 6, and was sick starting early October, she held on, she fought, and I wish I could have saved her.
Today after we buried her, there was a rainbow, and I can only hope she is okay, she is happy, and she knew how loved she was.. my soul mate and best friend, and I can only find a new vet I can trust, and give enoki everything I have.. I’m not ready for another bunny and I’m not sure I ever will be, so all I can do is hope he never feels alone.. I just feel like this shouldn’t have happened
by eleutharia