i had to make the awful choice to have my favorite little guy in the whole world, Bugbear, to sleep. after a CT scan, we found out there was just so much going on in his little body and even if we were to try to treat him, we decided it would just be too risky and too hard on him. the vet said that even though he was acting pretty normal and on medication, he had to still be in a lot of pain.
he went through so much in his 3.5 years but he was still the sweetest and strongest guy i know of. i always joke that i dont even think hes a bunny because there wasnt an ounce of evil, or even mischief, in him. even though i had to do all the hard things like vet trips, nail trims, and butt baths, he always showed me the most love and gave me kisses to say thank you.
he lost his leg when the rescue found him with a crazy fracture in 2023. he was adopted and then returned. his remaining back leg started deteriorating too. but he never let it stop him. then he got real bad infection/abscesses from his teeth and i couldn’t justify taking even more from him. he deserved so much better from the world and i am so angry about it. i know that i made the right decision letting him go after a good week before it got even worse, but it still feels awful and i just wish he could understand and i could’ve asked him what to do.
he was the first thing to ever make me feel true unconditional love. i only had a few months with him and that makes it even harder. i barely got any memories with him. it’s not fair. he was my best friend. i miss him so much. today was even harder than i thought it would be. rest in peace, buggy boy, i’m so sorry.
by juniperbuds