Awful accident

Hi friends….

I don’t know who else to turn to.

I’ve tried several times to type this out, in some sort of hope of support or similarity.

I’m broken and feel like I will never be whole again.

I haven’t slept, I haven’t eaten and the guilt is consuming me.

As my baby was it for her usual playtime yesterday, she swooped under my feet and I stepped on her.

She tried to hop away and she couldn’t move.

I rushed her to the vet only 5 minutes away. They took X-rays and gave her fluids and pain meds. They said nothing is broken or bleeding and she should be just fine. I knew something wasn’t right tho.

I set my alarm for every hour on the hour to go wake and check on her, I had been feeding her critical care every few hours.

I did all the right things.

But she slowly died in my arms later that night.

It was the most horrific thing I have ever had to witness. I killed her and I don’t think I will ever forgive. I feel like an absolute monster. The only solace I am finding right now is that she was in my arms and I was talking to her telling her it’s ok. Her cat friends were right around her.

That little bunny was so loved.

It was all an accident. It happened so fast.

I loved her every single day, and still felt like it wasn’t enough time.

Please hug your babies today, be extra careful. Extra! And maybe give them a blueberry for Miss Bun! Those were her favorite.