I lost my sweetest baby girl this time last week.
She and her brother went in for a routine dental procedure and she didn't make it through the anesthetic.
I am devastated. She was only 4, had her pre-anaesthetic bloods taken before the procedure, and had been spayed at 5 months with no issues so we were all so confident. The vet said out of the 4 buns he saw that day, she was the healthiest of them all. He said he's never had this happen during a dental procedure.
I know these things are always a risk, but my heart is completely broken. I feel like I have been robbed of so many wonderful years with my baby.
She used to wake me up by nudging my head at 7am.
Now when I open my eyes, I don't see my sweet girl's face.
I make my morning coffee and the space on the floor where she used to sit and wait for a herby treat from the fridge is empty.
I was the only one she'd permit to give her tickles, the only one she'd sit on.
I miss her headbutting me out of the way when I had the audacity to sit in her path, or the scrabbles on my feet when she wanted bedtime treats. I miss seeing her and her brother curled up together, safe and sleepy. I miss her so much my chest aches.
by Bluejeansblue2113